My Anxious Thoughts

How do your thoughts affect your words and actions?

At the beginning of 2021, I signed up for a Hebrew course. I believed that I could manage this course and was excited to prove it to myself and to others around me. Although it is hard, most days I can’t wait to sit down with the homework assignments even though I often struggle to remember and understand the lesson.

Recently, however my thoughts have become negative and critical…of myself. “Oh Marnie. Why can’t I remember this stuff?” “I’m probably the only one in the class who can’t remember the vocabulary and grammar.” “Maybe this is too hard and I’m too old to do this.”

My negative thoughts were beginning to affect my actions as I was ready to quit. The others in my class were talking about taking the next level, but I felt that I wasn’t keeping up now, so how could I move on?

At camp this summer, the pastor spoke about these verses:

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139: 23, 24

I was confusing my anxious thoughts with reality.

Is it true that I am too old? Is it true that I’m not capable of learning a difficult language? I want to trust my earlier peace, and not let my anxious thoughts sabotage my progress.

Pay attention to your thoughts. Are your thoughts taking you “in the way everlasting”? Don’t let negative thoughts stop you from doing something that might be difficult. Go for that dream of changing your job or learning a new skill.

Whenever a Bible verse is translated to say, “listen” or “hear” God’s voice, it always implies “to obey”. You’ll know it is God speaking if the desire you have to do something gives you a peaceful feeling. There is joy and even excitement when you are walking His way. Challenging? Probably. But maybe an exciting opportunity is on the other side of your anxious thoughts.

Start being grateful that His presence in you is all you need.

“Search me O God and know my heart…”

May you know His peace as you hear and obey today!

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